I'm having one of those days when I am super grumpy. I make plans, and have to break them, I have dreams, they're shattered, I have wants, and I'm told I can't have them. I don't know how many more negative things I can handle. I feel like my life is slowly moving toward the negative side of the number line. I don't know why I'm so emotional or sad these days. I have reasons to be, but I have reasons to be happy too. Why is it that I can't break this funk?
I need to get over this whole 'feeling sorry for myself thing' but I'm not sure how. New job? Pet? Baby? I want all 3, but none will be coming my way soon unfortunately. At least I doubt it. Because one I can't seem to get, the other I can't afford right now, and the third I want, but my partner in crime doesn't at this time. I feel so overwhelmed with negativity.
I wish I could escape to wherever it is that Alice lived and crawl down a rabbit hole into a fantasy world. Maybe after being nearly beheaded by a psycho queen, having to slave to paint white roses red, and talking to a disappearing cat will help me be happier for the things I have. Until then I think I'm going to have my own pity party. Those are allowed in life sometimes right?
I wish I had something to say that would make this all go away for you melis. I know how you feel, and it's not fun at all to be in such a negative mood. But know that there are so many people that more than adore you!! And it will happen for you soon, all the things you want right now. Focus on the greatest accomplishment ever... You bought a house! Omg how awesome is that?! :) if there is ever anything I can do, tell me! I want to be here for you xoxoxoxo
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